Some people have to take medication, and medication management becomes a thing. My newest symptoms are lack of focus and forgetfulness. Let’s not forget the self-diagnosing, where I say something like lazy too. These are a few of the thoughts that go through my head when I think about medication and how I have to take it.
As a fact, I set up an appointment with a professional to adjust my medications. On purpose. I have been in the headspace for so long of someone who doesn’t want to have to take medications, and now I am setting up appointments. I’ve come a long way.
But why is it such a big deal? You say. Because taking medication can make you better or it can make you worse, and you have to try a few different meds before you find the right one.
For example, I have been trying to find the right meds since I was 21. I even stopped taking meds for a few years. I’ve tried many different kinds of meds. Mostly for bipolar. Which I think was the wrong diagnosis, or it changed over the years. I think I might be mildly adhd. All I know is I can’t live like this.
This thought has given me some fear because I used to use meth as a younger person, and I don’t wanna go back, even to visit. So the thought of what they are gonna give me is putting the fear in me. But I just need to be honest with the doctor and trust God.
Medication management happens a lot in my household as I have a yongster who also has adhd and autism, so he has meds that I have to manage too.
And we have meds for the evenings and meds for the mornings. Thankfully, no afternoon meds. You might be wondering what this has to do with healthy habits and why I would start posting something so personal.
The reason is accountability. This has become something I want to share about. If I don’t take care of my mental health, then there won’t be any healthy habits I can report on because I will be lost in my illness. So here is to having a healthy mind as well.
