My God Is My Healer
My God is my healer. How many of us really believe it though? If we are in a moment of craziness, how do we call on him? It is so important to call on him when we are in need. If we believe in Christ we know this to be true. So why is it so hard to speak out that we need help. And if we did call on him and we still feel like he is nowhere near what is the next step? There is another step. What is it?
What is the next step?
The word has power. It is sharper than any two-edged sword and can cut through even the deepest part of our souls. I take that to mean it can cut through my emotions and my bad days. The word is healing to my soul. I forget that when I am in the middle of my trial. I call on God for help and when I don’t feel immediate relief I blame him for my situation or whatever is going on in that moment.
I leave my bible on the table so I can easily get to it anytime I need it. It is also there so that I see it when I am in the middle of a trial. However lately I have had a bunch of books on my table. It makes my bible not stand out quite the way I need it to. Which I definitely needed it yesterday.
For me, I see a difference between calling on God and Prayer. They are very similar as they both involve talking to God. I don’t take this to mean it is the only way. It works differently for different situations and for different people. For myself, it stands out in this way but I realize that it can work for someone else the exact opposite.
However, to me, one way is whining and ordering God to fix whatever problem we may be having in that moment. While prayer is petitioning him in all his holiness for the help we need all the while realizing that if he doesn’t step in that exact moment that he is still with us and we can draw on that power.
How are we supposed to draw on his power?
Besides the ways I mentioned above, another piece of this puzzle is worship. I tell you what! My two-year-old can get out of just about anything by coming up and giving me a kiss. It is so sweet and makes me feel loved. If God is our father shouldn’t we treat him as such and make him feel the love. Praise him and pay attention to all he has done in our lives.
Do you remember the prostitute in Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John? How Jesus said her sins are many and she is forgiven. If Jesus forgave her of her many sins won’t he also forgive us for our few sins? If he has done huge works in your life (even if they were only huge to you) then notice them. Tell him you remember all the wonders he did in your life.
What happens when you forget
I can tell you what happens when you forget. At least what happens when I forget. I had a day yesterday where I got complacent. The whole week was spent focusing on lessons I needed to complete. In this process, I forgot all about God. Sure, I said my daily prayers but I wasn’t present for any of them.
What ended up happening is that I left my kids with a crazy lady who was moody, grouchy, impatient, super sensitive to loud noises and having moments of not being very loving. To the point that she had to go hide in the bedroom for a few minutes several different times for everyone’s safety. That crazy lady was me.
I didn’t think to do any of the above. As a believer, I know that my daily time with God strengthens me and stabilizes me. Yet I often get complacent. A few weeks of good and feeling great and for some reason, I forget who helped me be that way. Today I had my time with God. Yesterday after having a very hard day, I tackled the word at the very end of the day.
After the problem is not the right time but better late than never
After the problem. But even though I was late it helped tremendously to see where the problem actually was. I had been blaming God and he had to do some work on me to help me see that he had not let me down but that I had not leaned into him. I had ordered him to fix my emotions but I had not leaned into him or trusted him. At one point I had even told him how I felt like he had deserted me. Thankfully he understands and hears me even when I’m feeling at my lowest.
I always say something I heard from someone else earlier in my life. “We can start our day over anytime we want”. Yesterday I said that too many times. But I did not do the work that would have allowed me to be able to actually do it.
So today. If you feel alone or like God deserted you. It’s OK. But if you want to be closer to him in your time of need. I suggest you dig into the word. Read your bible. Talk to God regularly and praise him for those little things he does in your life. And it’s OK to tell him how you feel. Even if you have to do some whining, yelling or out-bursting. He understands where you are. It would be more helpful to add in some praise and remembrance too. He does hear you.