Journey I’m on
This is the journey I’m on. For the most part I’m enjoying the journey. Even though today I struggled with a little depression and had a hormone go AWOL towards the end of the day. I didn’t quit my job over something silly and I even made it to the dealership to meet my husband to take care of the car business.
While I look forward to seeing this bloom, there is a part of me that hardly believes I’m trying at all. I’m willing to work extra hard on this site in the am before work. That should say something. It feels good to be willing to put in extra hours to try to have something different and to try to change our circumstances. Right there is something to be proud of. I am proud of myself.
Blogging has been the best decision I made. I know I haven’t seen much turn out on it yet. There has been some though and that makes me want to try harder. It helps me believe it’s possible. My hope has been raised. I know I will be quitting my job in Mid August. Unfortunately this will leave my husband responsible for all the bills, including my car payment for the car we have outgrown due to our newest little bundle of joy.
This is my journey though. It is a little scary going into it. Part of it is freeing. I have been hating the work I do recently and have not been enjoying the company I do it for either. So when I started this blogging thing my goal was to be able to quit my job. However the goal was to quit once I was sure it would work. I’m still working on that but I think it’s coming.
I enjoy the writing!
The writing part of it has been the best for me. I don’t have any degree’s but I enjoy it. I remember not so much in school years. I see a lot of people with all kinds of degree’s and businesses and I’m just a worker, a mom, a wife, an employee, a maid and a cook. All the hats I wear to keep my house running smoothly. Lately I havent worn a lot of my hats due to the stress that I have been under.
So after having the baby I thought I might like to change something. So far every time I have a baby I also have some sort of life change that needs to happen. Last time I changed positions within my job and this time I’m changing the job all together. I’m excited and as I have already said a little scared.
It’s going to be good. Aside from some of the technical stuff. I need a little more work on that. I feel a little smarter all the time. It has been really good for my self-confidence. Which if you have had depression before, you already know that suffers along with it. It also gives me something else to focus on. Sometimes I need something else to focus on. To feel like I’m creating something good.
I have been thinking of all the projects I can do in my journey. They are going to be fun to write about. It is very exciting that after a few months I still feel this much enthusiasm. Even though my success has been very limited. I look forward to everything in front of me.
For today I put something out there. I believe it was good. This is my journey and I’m learning a lot.