Seeking My God
Today I woud like to talk about the God habit, about seeking my God. For myself this means talking about Jesus, who saved more than just my soul when I die. Where would I be without my Jesus? Stranded down some back alley is what I’m thinking. I have a testimony but that’s not what I’m sharing today. Today we are discussing the habit of seeking God.
For some people this can be a very contraversial subject.
So let me start off by saying that whoever you believe in is ok with me. We were given free choice for a reason. I do not believe I was placed here to judge you or anyone else for your beliefs. I do not believe that is acting in love. Now that that’s out of the way. Who do you rely on? Who do you call out to when noone else can help. Who do you believe in and why?
I call on Jesus. Lately I have been calling him but I haven’t been saying much other than help. With the hormonal stuff that’s been going on I have been fearful of going to many places especially with the babies. The uncontrollable crying or yelling out has kept me in fear. But today I said “we are going to church”.
What do you think happened?
Suddenly the baby had a poopy. A huge poopy. One that required a bath. I was even dressed for church! The thing was, that I was starting to stress about time anyway. So when I discovered the baby needed a bath, I called it off. I would not be able to get there on time. I like to be on time. I’m so into being on time that I thought about having a clock as part of my logo but I can’t find anyway to make it and my blog topic match. I even have a clock picked out in canva, but again, this blog is about habits … not time. I could write a post about time but it’s not the same.
So for the last couple of weeks I have been meaning to get back into going to church. I have been studying outside of church but not faithfully. I read a scripture here and there. I have only been faithful in watching my Joyce Meyer. God used her in a miraculous way and saved my life. So I have been watching her and then also during my nursing time at work I brought a book and have been saying the scriptures out loud over my and my families lives. So I have been doing something.
At least its something but needs to be better
But my God Habit has been suffering. It needs to be something I do everyday. Not just when I’m struggling and not as a last resort. I want God apart of my everyday and in my everything. I know it will all go better if he is apart of it. Today when my anxiety started getting the better of me I figured God would always welcome me but that maybe I wasn’t showing his best foot if I left the house like that. I do believe that he works best in our weeknesses, but I don’t know how to show it in the moment . Something for me to work on.
I am learning how to include him in everything. For me church is important. I know I will get back. For next week, I need to start getting ready a little earlier. I was getting ready as if I only had one child. Apparently I need a little more time for the two. Next week I will be ready.
How do you prepare for your church day? How do you get closer to your God? What is a good habit to get into in this area for you?
I am seeking my God, Are you ready to seek your God?